Ever since my childhood I am very fortunate that I was raised a Catholic.  I have a very loving family and we had a simple lifestyle.  Though sometimes we lack material things we were full of love and holy fear in God.  My father leads the rosary at 6pm daily.  We went to mass but not on a weekly basis, probably because we were so many and my parents cannot afford the transportation from  our place to the church. 

To tell you honestly during the time the rosary was long and boring and I don’t understand the mass.  During college I am very fortunate to have a Catholic Education that helped me a lot in terms of faith in God.  But it was just a learning process for me not a personal relationship with our Lord.  That was a long easy life   “Yes I know God and that He cares for everyone” and that was it.  I went to mass on a regular basis, saying the rosary, attending prayer meeting, bible study & parish service. 

I thought that was fine. “I am good”   Sailing smoothly but I feel there is more, I want more.  My soul, my whole being is lacking of something.  I just feel it I do not remember even telling God about it. God knows everything even our inner most desire. My life went on and on. Until now that I am here in a far away land away from my comfort zone, away from my family, friends and parish.   I have all my time and my focus is to ask for mercy that I can fulfill what He has planned for me. 

Being away is hard especially in terms of your role as a mother and a wife you cannot do anything but to trust and ask for mercy for the safety of your loved one back home.  You have plenty of time to think and reflect what you've been through and what lies ahead.  I really cling to Him reading the bible one page a day, reading the daily gospel, rosary on my way to work alternately on a weekly basis saying the Divine Mercy using the rosary, daily walk to the beach on my way to work I find these a nourishment of body and spirit.  As I walk to the beach I enter the glory of intimacy with Him.  Learning more how to pray and more than that to listen to what He wants. 

Well I know I have so much to learn and also a lot of self enhancements to do but I am at peace and though the situation is the same “away from home” but the important thing is “nearer to God”.  With this thought “Praise and Glory to God”.